Today...I have a confession to make. For those of you who don't personally know me, I am scared to go to the Dentist. Terrified, actually.
That is why I have been avoiding a trip there to fix my teeth. I have several teeth that are giving me fits. One is broken.
I also have an allergy to metals. Since I have three or four different metals in my mouth, (fillings, caps, crowns), I have an itching problem on my face and down my ear canal. Only sometimes, though.
Anyway...my whole face hurts right now. Which means I cannot put it off any longer.
This morning I called the 1-800-Dentist number and found out an alternative to going the welfare route which means driving down below to a bad area and going through all the hoops before they say OK. That could take months.
Western Dental has an insurance thing that is $85 for singles and $118 for families for a year. Then you can charge it and make payments. It is also located in Palmdale and Lancaster, which makes it much faster to get to and easier for whoever goes with me.
When I was a child, I was taken to the Dentist, where my Mother would sit on me to keep me from running away. They would then drug me to incapacitate me. Once they got me into the chair, the assistant would sit on my arms to hold me down, and pry my mouth open for the shots and whatever else. The whole thing was awful.
I am afraid that I may have passed my fear off on my Son. AND that my fear has caused me to suffer more than I needed to.
Silly Girl!
So...now I have to go anyway. Just avoiding the outcome. A lesson I fought learning. When you fight the lessons they only get harder. I know that. I just am so afraid.
So...today I have to face my fears. Deep seated fears from my childhood. I am almost sick to my stomach. It is my only choice, now.
So suck it up girl!
I have to say...The Lad has offered to take me. I love that man.
What a blessing he is.
I will keep you posted.
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