My Holiday Wishes 12/23/2011
As Christmas approaches, I am still in my kitchen making goodies for the masses. Banana bread, zucchini bread, and lots of cookies. BFF is coming tomorrow. I am always pleased to spend ANY amount of time with her. It is so precious to me. She is coming to get her Christmas stuff. After she leaves, I will be making turkey for Farmer J and all his family. As I look back on this past year, I see how much we all have grown as a new family. It is so wonderful. I feel lucky to have a man who loves me so much. His family has embraced The Lad and me, and welcomed us into their life. Blessings abound! As hard as I fought to NOT be Farmer J's girlfriend over the last twenty years, I am happy I finally caved. I am also grateful he never gave up on me. Twenty years is a long time to wait. He just kept saying...'That's OK. I have time.' Anyway...I want to say thank you to you all for coming to this site. For reading my little musings. For backing me up when times got hard. For holding my heart when the sadness was too much to bear. This year was sad because we lost my Sister to cancer this June. I could never remember a time when she wasn't here. I miss her badly. Sometimes I pick up the phone to call her before I remember where she is. Then I cry. But she is where she can't hurt anymore. That gives me peace. There were too many years where she suffered so. I know we will be together again, someday. But not yet. Not yet. (Name that Russell Crowe movie). We will be young and pretty and so happy to be together again. But for now, I am where I am supposed to be. Looking forward to the wonderful possibilities of the coming year. The new gardens. The new friends. And all the love that makes it worth while to be here. Best wishes for the Holidays and the New Year to come. ***************************************************** 4 Comments Life Changes 12/17/2011
Today is a day that I want to celebrate. Today is the day that Farmer J gets two new toilets. TWO! I am so happy! He is also working on putting in a couple of sinks and some shower fittings. The Bee Whisperer is instructing on the proper way to do that. The Lad is also in attendance. I would call it 'males bonding'. A perfect way to spend a Saturday. Hope you all have a perfect one, as well. ***************************************************** Holiday Baking 12/14/2011
I have been working like crazy lately. Like that is something new. I made 24 loves of zucchini bread, six of banana bread, a batch each of hot pepper relish and kiwi pineapple jam. Yesterday, I had some help squeezing pomegranates. It was a lean season this year for fruit. The frost this Spring, took almost all the fruit in town. No joke. Hopefully...with a little tree trimming this Winter, the fruit will be great big and beautiful this coming Spring. I know that in apple trees, if there was a lean year with very little fruit, the following year the tree will likely be loaded. It is the unused 'energy', stored from one year to the next. I hope all fruit trees carry that same trait. AND...that it doesn't freeze in an untimely manner this coming Spring. Early this year, my next door neighbor died suddenly from diabetes. On Mother's Day, her only child came and scraped weeds from the empty acre between us. It was so heart wrenching for me to 'feel' his pain, I couldn't tell him how sorry I was about his Mom's passing. This weekend, he was over at the house, having a garage sale. I finally screwed up enough courage to go talk to him, and say how sorry I was for his loss. That made me think about all the other losses that happened this year. The saddest one is my Sis. I miss her so. She loved decorating for the holidays. It didn't matter WHAT holiday...she had them all covered. It was something she could do no matter how bad she felt and it gave her comfort and a sense of accomplishment. I am sure it also satisfied her artistic bent. Anyway...I want to say Love you Sis. And Mom. Miss you both bunches. ***************************************************** Off Balance 12/09/2011
As usual, hub bub galore! It keeps me from my 'appointed rounds'. I find that I really miss writing when I don't do it for a while. It is like a pallet cleanser...it gives me a fresh outlook afterwords. I 'work' through my 'issues' through my writing. I have issues dividing my time and still doing what I need for me. Like this site. It is finding the balance. I have to trust that I am on my path for the highest good for all concerned. I just don't always 'see' the next right action, and have a tendency to not trust the path right away. Lately, I have been feeling uneasy. I think the full eclipse of the Moon that happens tomorrow is affecting my mood. Eclipses seem to pin point areas that need change and put that change in motion. You need to make room for the good to come in. I have a little trouble waiting for things. It is because I am a girl of action. I have always thought that if I can't 'fish', then I need to 'fix nets' and 'cut bait'. hen the phone rings and I am off again. It is nice to be needed. ***************************************************** |  ArchivesMay 2012 CategoriesAll |
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